Being far away from the man that I love got me into this song so much. It's a piece from Phantom of the Opera, one of the most touching parts of the whole play.
Every night before I sleep I play this song in my Real Player, at least twice. Sometimes when I wake up I also play it again to make myself feel a little better. I sometimes cry when I listen to it, but I surrender. As much as I miss my man, I realize that there's nothing more I can do except accepting that now and here is my time and space, being far away from my loved one to pursue something that is important too in life; my education.
This morning, as I woke up feeling blue, I realized that the biggest challenge that I face here is not about the syllabus, not about my majors, not about the worries of 15 credits that I take, not about my house, not about my adaptation. I have no issue with those so far. My biggest challenge now is conquering my blues of missing him and my longing for good love and good relationship. Those needs of emotional support are the the ones that I must deal with, and it's a test for my emotional and spiritual maturity. I guess, this is why God send me here for. To learn, not only about Political Communication, but also to learn more about myself, my needs, and how to fulfill them in healthy way without harming my heart... and to surrender.
Somehow human can't have everything in life perfect, thus
it is a whole life issue to work on the imperfection, to make it, at least, a comfortable being, as close as possible to our desired ideal setting.
Not the ideal setting that I dream of, but the ideal setting that comes from the accelaration of needs, reality and my capacity to afford my needs. Tricky, but I believe this is the way life should be if we want to live happier.
So in case of my misery of missing my love, "Think of Me" sang by Sarah Brightman in the Phantom of The Opera is my middle way. It helps me to acquire the consciousness that hoping that he still think of me is enough for now, as asking him, oe expecting that he would be waiting for me until I am back will be too selfish... All the efforts I can do is expressing my feeling, and keeping good contact with him. Praying for his happiness, wishing that he lives a good life and be well, content and healthy is my daily messages to the universe. I wish that the Forces will take care of my love. The rest, only God knows how would it be.
So, here it go, Think of Me. I copied the clip from You Tube, and you can watch it here.
Christine (Sarah Brightman)
Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while
Please promise me you'll try
When you find that, once again,
You long to take your heart back and be free
if you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me
We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea
But if you can still remember, stop and think of me ...
Think of all the things we've shared and seen
Don't think about the way things might have been ...
Think of me, think of me waking, silent and resigned
Imagine me,trying too hard to put you from my mind
Recall those days, look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do
There will never be a day, when I won't think of you ...
Raoul (Steve Barton)
Can it be?
Can it be Christine? Bravo!
Long ago, it seems so long ago
How young and innocent we were
She may not remember me,
but I remember her ...
Christine (Sarah Brightman)
Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade
They have their seasons so do we
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me...